Living in the Moment

I want to live in the moment.

I don’t want to be constantly thinking about the past.  I gain nothing by racking my brain over should haves and could haves.  I tend to look backwards assessing whether or not a different decision would have been better.  I like to consider the road not taken as a means to assess my present life.  At times, this is good as it makes you appreciate life.  However, in most cases, it simply riddles you with guilt or depression.  It gains me nothing.  You don’t know whether or not a different decision would have been better.  In fact, it robs me of precious joy today.  The past is done.  It cannot be changed.  Yet, why do I oftentimes spend so much time assessing it?

I want to live in the moment.

I don’t want to be consumed by the future.  It is tempting to spend the entire day thinking about tomorrow – the next task, the upcoming event.   And, oh it is easy to live for something that will occur years down the road – life as an empty nester or retirement.  Is it good to plan?  Are goals good?   The answer is unequivocally “Yes.”  Yet, there is always that pull towards being fixated on future events that we don’t even enjoy today.  We rationalize our future-planning by saying, “then I will enjoy life” or “tomorrow I will be content.”  So we scurry around preparing for the future all the while surviving today.

I want to live in the moment.

I don’t want to go through each day checking off duties and obligations.  It is easy to simply survive the day.  I do my work.  I show up for appointments.  I attend the kid’s events.  I run the errands.  All the while we are looking forward to one moment in the day – that moment we can crash in front of the TV and think about nothing.  Or that moment when we can escape into our mental cave.  Surviving the day is not the way to live.  It is a depressing, meaningless existence.

I want to live in the moment.

I don’t want to be glued to social media, simply appreciating or at times envying someone else’s existence.  I don’t want my accomplishments today to be who I liked and what I posted and then checking throughout the day to see how many people liked what I posted.  I don’t want my greatest moment in the day to be the high score on some video game that will bring no lasting fulfillment.  It would be easy to spend hours in a digital hole watching videos on Buzzfeed or YouTube.  Yet, what joy will that bring?  It is not as if these are scrapbook moments.

I want to live in the moment.

I want to enjoy God’s goodness today – a sunset, a kiss.  I want to embrace the precious moments that come across my path and celebrate them – a meaningful exchange with one of my kids or a testimony by a friend of God’s grace.  I want to laugh.  I want to cry.  I want to be fully present in the moment.  I don’t want to squander life.  I want to live it.

This is what I have observed to be good: that it is appropriate for a person to eat, to drink and to find satisfaction in their toilsome labor under the sun during the few days of life God has given them—for this is their lot.”  Ecclesiastes 5:18

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